I think I might’ve set myself up for utter failure.

Lately, lots of conversations between my husband and me have centered around my songwriting passion. A LOT a lot. (Bless his heart and ears.)

During vacation he got all impassioned about this passion of mine. Of course, being THE-MOST-DISCIPLINED-PERSON-I-KNOW, his mind headed straight for the practical. He talked about how Hemingway wrote for 2 hours. Standing up. Every day. Whether he wanted to or not. He talked about how those who really make masterpieces have tons and tons of failed attempts in their trash bins. He talked about honing the “skills” of songwriting, so they’ll be effortlessly employed when true inspiration hits.

Then he told me that he really thought I could write 100 this year.
And a lot of them would be bad.
And some of them would be great.
And I could post them for y’all here.

I looked at him like he was crazy.
Then he looked at me in a deep and deliberate way – like he could see things in me that I’m completely unaware of.

Then I decided to find out if he was right.

57 thoughts on “I think I might’ve set myself up for utter failure.

  1. you KNOW very well… Drew is perfectly right (well – on this thing anyway! :-) )

    Leonardo Da Vinci did NOT just draw perfectly when the mood ‘took’ him – not without hundreds of hours of ‘practice’ when many many rough drafts were tried – and tossed or painted over.

    Lennon and McCartney did not write just a hundred and fifty or so ‘Clasic Hits and nothing but – they wrote lots that never made it to the charts – or even as finished songs.

    Michaelangelo did not ‘start’ with the statue ‘David’ and quit while he was ahead.

    you COMMIT to what you love because you love doing it – not because you are going to make everything you ever start a great work of ‘Art’ – and if you are lucky – after many long hard hours of ‘striving’ and determined effort – you might just find something within you that comes out just the way you hoped… or maybe not the way you hoped but which all who hear it – for some reason – LOVE it. Probably buried under all those sheets of noted that won’t ever be a ‘great’ composition, but that’s how ALL the hreat artists begin – and develop their craft.

    so go get writing like your Hubby said :-)

    and don’t be the ONLY one who gets the chance to decide if what you write is great – or not! yes?

    <B

  2. I was going to say that I look forward to hearing about your failures, but that doesn’t sound right…
    So, instead I’ll just agree with what lovewillbringustogether said. I think he even inspired me!
    With the encouragement of your husband and your friends here, I am thinking you’ll write just over a hundred songs.

  3. You can do it!!

    I’m trying to write a song per week (not as ambitious as 100 for the year) but a challenge nonetheless!!

    Maybe we can spur one another on.

  4. One artist to another…sometimes what we write is good, sometimes it sucks…but as long as we WRITE, then we are half way to the finished masterpiece we have waited for:)

    Bring it on girlfriend!

  5. You’re blessed to have someone who not only believes in you but also pushes you lovingly beyond your comfort zone to become the best you can be. You’ll do great:)

  6. If you haven’t seen Finding Forester…go rent it…it might help you out and inspire you. You are totally up to this challenge, and I think you will totally see what you are made of during this time.

  7. KA: haven’t watched that movie in a long time… Might be good to watch again. Thank you.

    Rain! Welcome back. :) I LOVE new people more than I express it. Thanks for coming.

    All you oldies, thanks for coming as well! :)

  8. that drew is a smart man!

    “He talked about how those who really make masterpieces have tons and tons of failed attempts in their trash bins. ”

    my stupid fear of failing has prevented me from this step.

    dang it drew!

    mandy, i can NOT wait for you to do this!!!

  9. You know, Mandy, you have to submit to his authority!!!

    Just kidding. I would have told Phat it’s time to stop talking. :shock:

    Well, actually…after I got over the initial shock of 100!!!!!…I would probably agree.

    I’m sure we’ll love most of them. ;)

  10. Tam: How ’bout you write a paragraph a day with me? c’mon… Accountability at its best.

    Holly: Don’t. Stop. Praying!

    Red: I almost told him the conversation was over. I honestly don’t think I can do it. I’m brewing up something that I hope to complete tonight, but I’m so intimidated by the number!

  11. I can understand that. But think, how many really good songs are on a CD…4 out of 10??? (Well, unless it’s U2, then they’re all great.)

    You can do it.

    We’re cheering you on!!!

  12. Congratulations! That’s a big step!

    And really, isn’t utter (public) failure better than doing nothing?

    Good for you. And good for Drew, believing and pushing…

    Can’t wait to hear all 100!

  13. Red: So, if I can write 40 decent songs this year, then I’m practically a recording artist?! I LIKE this thought! I can still have a 60% failure rate. :)

    Cindy: It IS 2009, isn’t it!? YAY!!!

    PQ: Failure better than nothing? Um…. I wince at the thought, but I think you’re right… At least, if I’m gonna stick to who I really am. I gotta do this.

  14. Nat: HAHA! Glad you clarified. I’m twisting Tam’s arm to write 2 chapters a month. And that’s weenie. You’re a pro. You can do better than that! So, you want in as well?? Set your goal!

  15. Here’s what I love about this challenge you’ve taken on: You do all the work, and I get all the reward of hearing your songs. :)

    Yep. Sounds fair to me. Gotta love that Drew. Smart man.

  16. Nice to see you back. It’s also great to see how much Drew supports your passion for song writing. I look forward to every song. There is no bad music, we just like some songs more than others.

    Pushing your self by setting a challenging goal can be the motivation that may help you produce your best work. The idea of setting aside X number of hours a day, a week, to writing is something most of the great authors and composers had to do.

    Music to me, comes more from the heart more than the head. You can discipline your head, but not your heart. When your heart sings to you write the song. If your heart isn’t singing then I doubt any amount of work will do that much good.

    DO NOT beat yourself up if you can’t write something you like during your work session. That might be counter productive. If in 2009 you can only write one song you love that would be fantastic.

  17. Ed: That’s why I’m nervous. I hope my heart can keep up with my head in this endeavor!!!

    Papa: I’m workin on it!!! Sheesh!

    Michael: But of course!

    Tam: Sensitive…

    Becca: Yes girl. Me too!

    Gitz: Um. Does that make you lazy, or a cheerleader? ;)

    Tammy: Who’s Rosie?

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  20. GO FOR IT!!!!!
    I’m aiming for 30 good songs and to complete at least 5 chapters in a novel Im writing!!! Can’t wait to hear what comes pouring out of you this year!

  21. Dang girl!! And you got kids to take care of, too, right?

    Heidi: :) You sure you’re not just one of those moms? Just kidding! I actually read that some of the best songwriters have a natural gift for poetry. They make the best lyricists…

    Fran: Fueling! Fueling! Thank you.

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