Between two worlds
I sat in small group last night and remembered when we started one, over three years ago, in my apartment. Now, 3 apartments and 3 years later, it’s still going.
I wondered if last night would be the last time I go to small group here. I thought about how much I’d miss the friends in that group – the friends that were once a part of the group – and the friends from seminary that never even made it to the group. So many faces…
Then I remembered the friends we’d return to back in Georgia. And the new friends I’ve already made in the process. And the friends I’ve yet to meet.
And then I thought about how many seminary friends we’ve already invited to come down and take a vacation on the warm Georgia coast… And how I really do want these people to see my Georgia world. And how much I want my Georgia world to see these people. And I thought about the ones who probably WILL see my southern life. And how excited that makes me.
And then I thought about packing. And the house (or lack thereof). And the drive down. And Christmas AND New Year’s between our move and our first day of work. And whether or not we’ll have to time to paint. And how I’m going to decorate my office at the church. And if it’s going to make me crazy to see my husband all-the-time-every-day-working-in-the-same-place. And whether or not it’s safe to put a plant beside a computer. And if Drew and I will be so busy that we’ll miss each other. And if we’ll miss this quiet seminary season where there seems to be time. And if I’ll be able to remember all the hard lessons I’ve learned while at seminary.
And if I could just focus on one thing at a time. Like, paying attention in small group and listening to my friends, instead of wandering off into thoughts about a different world.
And if I will be able to really really enjoy these last few weeks that I have here.
And if I can make the time to really spend time with all the friends that I have to say goodbye to… really soon.
Too soon.
Whew! That is a lot of changes! My parents drive to work together everyday. I think if they can do it, anybody can. =)
“And whether or not it’s safe to put a plant beside a computer.”
ok. you definitely have lots goin on, thats for sure. i think you’ll experience a bit of grieving while you simultaneously enjoy the return of the familiar and the welcoming of the brand new. its a lot to soak in, girl. and i know your heart can handle it…even tho at times it may feel like its gonna explode – but that feeling will be because your cup is overflowing. soak in the goodness. the blessings. the provision. the family. the faces. the memories. the SUN! the new. the challenging. the sights, the smells. the love!
Hopefully we WILL see your world this May if we are able to make it that far south
That. Would. Make. My. May.
Miss you already. Maybe we won’t be too far away after this summer.
i better be on that vacation list…
This reminds me of brides who put so much planning into the wedding and then say it was such a whirlwind they barely remember the day.
I know you have a lot of thoughts swirling, but hopefully they will help you pay attention in each moment. Feel the grief, feel the excitement, savor your moments. This is a time in your life you will want to look back on fondly and remember with a smile. I’m smiling about it all with you
The mixed emotions of leaving one group of friends, and going home to another. The difference with this move is that it’s to your own home, and not just an apartment.
You now have a chance to put down some roots in that “red Georgia clay”.
you totally need to do ” The Inheritance” study soon enough, girl, it will speak to your moving heart!