Sitting.

Yesterday I sat still with her 5 month old boy hunched over my forearm, fast asleep amidst the noise and music and distractions that come with a post-church lunch at a semi-fast food burger joint. And we laughed. And I got to hear bits and pieces of her heart – of her life and what God is doing – how she’s changed and yet is still the same old friend I knew in highschool. And I was quiet – and I listened  - and I learned.

Later that night I spent hours on a new friend’s back porch- from the heat of day ’til well-past sundown… Talking. Telling stories. Telling secrets. I was quiet again. I did a lot of listening, but I got to know my friends so much better. And I learned about life, and parenthood, and college stories, and world travel, and all sorts of random things.

All from sitting.

And these days, I’m blind to reasons why I’m not as introspective now as I used to be. Why I’m not as self-aware. Why I can’t tell you what I think or feel about certain things.

Maybe I should just sit more. Away from the laptop or cell phone or to-do list. Away from productivity and information overload.

Sit.

And listen to my own soul tell me its secrets – tell me stories that I haven’t heard in a while – or stories that I haven’t heard told before. Maybe then I will know myself again. Maybe.

What do you do to know yourself?

Write with me.

Repeat after me: “I’m more creative than I realize.”

I have a late-night idea! Let’s do a weekend writing challenge together. Not that recent-and-impossible 800 words challenge; but more like 80. I know you can type out 80 creative words today.

Let’s use my favorite - object writing: short time of writing about a word, using the senses (touch, taste, sight, hearing, feeling, smell)

The word? LOST

Oh, if you’re wondering just how LONG 80 words is, it’s the exact length of this post.

Go!

You:Create :: My Very First Custom-Made Desktop Wallpaper

My contribution to You:Create – desktop wallpaper.

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I had a hard time deciding whether or not to post this today. To most of us, this little picture above is just that: a picture. But, there’s a story behind it. One of my dear blog-friends is hosting a creativity challenge on her site right now – she started it a few weeks ago.

She is an inspiring young woman of faith. She is full of strength and beauty and compassion. She’s wise beyond her years, and has challenged me to take whatever is handed me in life, whether I want it or not. She is a blessing to those who know her – people from all across the world. She’s an amazing writer. And beautifully creative. And her heart is full of nothing but love.

But there’s something else about her… Something that will leave you speechless.

See, Sara (or Gitz, as we all know her in the comments around here) suffers from a degenerative disease that has rendered her homebound. Ankylosing Spondylitis. She’s in chronic wincing pain. Her immune system is very weak. She can’t leave her apartment, or see anyone who has any hint of sickness. I don’t think she’s left her apartment in well-over a year.

We — the hundreds of other internet junkies that love her — are her community. We are a part of her world. And she is a part of ours. And she plays a huge role in this network of Christian (and non-Christian) creative fun-loving social media enthusiasts.

And, this weekend, a thick and heavy shadow was cast over her world. In short, her father quickly and unexpectedly passed away. The funeral was yesterday. But, because of her illness, Gitz was unable to be with her family. Through the blessing of technology they sent an internet stream of the wake and service to her apartment where healthy friends had gathered.

So what does this have to do with Gitz’ story? It’s all in that quote. Creativity is, in some ways, like a birthing. Like a spark of Light and Life. Like a release of a small part of me to go out into the world and become its own entity of hope and faith and joy and freedom. I didn’t know about Gitz’ father when I created this little piece of art, but I knew Gitz’ world. I knew that she too creates out of darkness and would understand it.

And, here again, in the imprisonment of her disease, Gitz has seen another shadow fall on her heart.

A desktop wallpaper may seem trite to you. But, to Gitz, stuff like this decorates her “door” to the rest of the world.

For you, Gitz, and for Light,

mandy

What’s your “Now?”

I’ve spent much of the past few years either looking forward or looking backward. Boston, Georgia, Seminary, ministry, summer, winter, pregnancy, infertility… backward and forward my heart goes.

I recently read a post by Anne Jackson (@flowerdust, “Mad Church Disease”) simply titled “When God Isn’t…” and, man, that header grabbed my attention. As you all know, God isn’t doing what I want him to do right now. Or whatever that heretically means. And it’s a hard pill to swallow.

But I’m trying. TRYING to stick with Him in this, albeit kicking and screaming.

I’m trying to focus on my “now” – on where He has me “now” and let that be enough. Isn’t it enough?

In 15 words, my now is:

creativity

nesting

relationships

ministry

songwriting

journaling

resting

discipline

grieving

embracing

sharing

answering

giving

loving

asking

That’s all I have. That’s my “now” and I’m beginning to hope to see some light in it. Some good in it. Some truth in it.

In fifteen gloriously honest and meaningful words, what’s your “now?”

What happens when a bunch of grassroots worship leaders get together and write?

My buddy Chris Vacher has spearheaded a movement by Canadian worship leaders, for Canadian worship leaders. So, you ask, why is some crazy American worship leader writing about this? Because Chris said we could use the songs as well. They’ve hit a number of churches in the states already.

The project is called “Worship Rises” and the first EP will be released today. This is a big deal, y’all. It’s not fronted by any labels or A&R development teams. It’s worship. Worship rising up out of the hearts of these leaders.

The song in the video has become the anthem of this movement – and it’s beautiful. Have a listen. You can grab the album at Amazon, and collect praise charts here as well.

I would’ve LOVED to have been a part of this. I wish I was Canadian…

So, on that note, heard any new worship songs lately that have really grabbed your heart? Share some titles here. I’m always up for new stuff!