i’ve been dreading this day for years

see.

this past memorial day will be a long-lived memory for me.

i knew this day was coming. it was inevitable. i just didn’t know when. and i didn’t know how i’d respond.

’cause i’m only 29 years old.

we were grilling out (or Bar-B-Qing or whatever you call it) with friends.

and she said it: “mandy, i think you have one, too.”

do you know what this “one” was?

a gray hair.

on further inspection, i think its clear.

and clear is CLEARLY not gray.

but i have one problem.

its 26 centimeters long – yes i measured it. and according to one of those websites where you can look stuff up, that means its been growing for over two years.

OVER TWO YEARS!

makeitstopmakeitstopmakeitstop!!!!!!!!!!!!

what do i do NOW???

whitney thompson – america’s next top model

dang if she didn’t win.

i jumped up and down with drew’s family and cheered at the TV when Tyra (in true Tyra form) dramatically announced Drew’s cousin as America’s Next Top Model.

she’ll be on the cover of Seventeen Mag in June.

and she already has her own wikipedia page.

this is what she said in the NY Post on May 15th:

“I’m not going to lose 50 pounds – if someone asks me to do that, I’ll go to another [modeling] agency,” she says. “I’ve already heard online from boys and girls all over the world who are dealing with eating disorders.

“They’re thanking me for standing up and saying, ‘I am a plus-size model and I am beautiful.’

This is what people should look like,” she says, referring to herself, “rather than skin-and-bones, which is disgusting and sends a bad message to people everywhere.”

yay for full-figured healthy modeling!

maybe this will turn the tide of our culture’s definition of beauty.

maybe now we’ll get to find out what these clothes will look like on a NORMAL female frame.

maybe we should stop buying clothes from designers that employ size-two, under-weight, bone-framed bodies as human clothes hangers.

i’m just sayin’

what do you think? what makes a woman beautiful?

i thought i saw a ghost

…the other morning.

um.

well.

see, what had happened was….

i looked in the mirror.

i was looking dead in the eyes of this pasty pale version of the long-faded mandy that once spent a healthy dose of hours on the beach – the mandy who wore t-shirts (rather than coats) for most of the year – the mandy who loved being outside SO much that she even did her morning bible study outside.

but this mandy. THIS mandy was pale, with dark circles under her eyes. VERY scary.

haunting!

i wanted to scream.

run.

call Ghostbusters.

i had to get rid of her, because i’m going to Florida with my in-laws in a few weeks and i DON’T want her to go with me.

i just couldn’t do that to them. i love them too much.

and, let’s just be honest, i have too much self-respect!

luckily, i remembered that i have a bottle of ghost-be-gone under the sink:

Fashion advice needed asap

problem: i have to go to Tiffany’s tomorrow with a friend, to look at rings. yes, Tiffany’s – as in Tiffany & Co., not the person’s house. the department store.

TIFFANY’S

where women walk in with lots of money and walk out with little blue boxes.

here’s our options:
black suit (knee-length black blaze) over colored, striped, OR white collared shirt
gray herringbone suit (traditional waist-length blazer) over the same
mod gray spring jacket with gray jeans and black heeled boots
trendy winter top with dark skinny jeans over black heeled boots

keep in mind: it’ll be about 35 degrees tomorrow morning…. and all options come with or without hats. :)

so. um. what do i wear?

or is it inevitable that they will take one look at me & direct me to the nearest Sears’ Layaway counter?!?

my mentor got lost in my blogworld.

i was inspired by my mentor’s take on blogging.

she’s a GREAT woman of the Word, and she’s spent 5+ intense years walking with/beside me.  i wouldn’t, in many ways, be where i am today without her.  so, she sent me an email yesterday tellin’ me she’d been lurkin’ on my blog and got lost in all of it (the blogworld, that is).

she also sent me some first-timer observations that i thought y’all would find interesting:

To do a blog about yourself, you really need to know yourself!!  What an awesome way to get to know yourself /figure out yourself/ and then to let the world know and enter in to you!!!  Not that life is all about us, but there is that healthy balance of learning about ourselves and then therefore loving ourselves, the way God created us!  Unique! Beautiful!  Full of quirks and likes and dislikes, etc….you young folk do that so much better then us old folk.  Thanks for leading the way for us.  Being so open with your humanity and so sure of God’s grace and position in Him.  It really is all about God, isn’t it??  He made us and He covers us!  We don’t need to be ashamed!!!  He’s got our backs!!!

so, tam’s question about spending time on the computer got me to thinkin’ about why in the world i even do this blog stuff… and my mentor is right, this has really become one way to get to know myself better. one of my other mentors always said “a life not evaluated is a life not worth living”… i think she’s right.  its like holding up a mirror of myself – studying the blemishes and beauty… getting into blogging in July definitely opened up a view of myself that i wouldn’t have seen otherwise!

but what about you? why do you blog? what do you “get out of it”?  i’m REALLY REALLY curious to hear some of your answers….