Receive.

Over and over again, the words “this is the blood of Christ shed for you” spilled out of my mouth. And as I repeated that phrase, I realized that I offered grace to each that dipped the bread into the juice. My hands. My voice. My unworthiness. My frantic Sunday-morning frustrations. My lack of experience distributing the elements. Myself, as a part of the Body of Christ, offering mercy and grace and forgiveness for those who would receive.

We have to do this. As members of the Body, we have to do this–there’s no one else who will extend this mercy and grace and forgiveness to others, in His name and by His death. And, this Sunday, I did. And they received.

Some immediately rose and got in line. Some knelt at the altar before they approached. Some held the hand of their very young or very old loved one. Others trickled in much later, after the line had dwindled. Some said “thank you.” Some said “amen.” Some just smiled. Others crossed themselves afterwards–forehead, heart, shoulder, shoulder. And some didn’t even make eye contact.

But that’s ok. I saw everyone of them.

And I saw how they each, in their own unique way, came forward. And I realized that it didn’t matter if they “amened” or cried. Or if they thanked me. Or thanked God.

All that mattered was that they approached with open hands.

All that mattered was that they received.

And I had to ask myself, in the midst of all my mumbling over the Blood: do I receive the very mercy I hold in my hands?

How’s it go? “It is in giving that we recieve.”

When’s the last time you really gave? Figuratively or literally held in your hands the very thing of faith and life for someone else? And how can we all do that more often?

photo: an easter snow bunny…

as requested, here’s my easter outfit photo! yes – i wore the mint sweater and brown slacks that y’all nearly unanimously agreed on – but THIS is a memory:

don’t you think that snow bunnies are MUCH “cooler” than the Easter Bunny?

i thought about editing and lightening the pic so you might actually be able to see me, but decided the pre-dawn feeling was more important.

sunrise service: 6:00 am – 6:30 am…

temperature: 25ish degrees

wind chill: deathly - note the windblown fur and scarf.

ground: FROZEN

photo taken: 6:30 am…

actual sunrise: 6:50 am…

yeah. we were too early for the sunrise, but way TOO cold to wait for it. OH WELL!!!

a hopeful church

From Basis of Millenial Faith by Hamilton

From the New Testament times to the present, the Church of Christ has been a hopeful church. Pessimism has no place in the Christian consciousness. No matter how dark the days or how discouraging the outlook of the world, Christians, who understand the teaching of the Word of God, and believe it to be true, have universally been optimists. Optimists, not because they believed that man was becoming better and better and making the world constantly a better place in which to live, or because they shut their eyes to the evils that surrounded them in the world, but because they knew the God in whom they trusted, and knew that His promises can never fail of fulfillment.

ht: my girl over at the modern nomad….

my Good Friday song

May God Arise

i wrote this last year, during my personal devotional time on Good Friday.

we’d been at seminary for about six months, and the move from one region of the country to another was quite a change. the winter was long and dark and cold. and my insides were wintering as well.

this song was very much a personal prayer for Christ to rise out of the tomb of my heart.

He has.

and He continues to.

how has Christ risen in your life over the past year?

May God Arise Good Friday 4/6/07
You weren’t born to lie in darkness, Lord we’re waiting, Lord we’re waiting…
We’re waiting for the Son to surface, will You break free, will You break free?
And with Your life as an offering
You came to die so that we can sing….
 
May God arise
From this tomb within my chest
May this heart of stone be flesh
Bringing life and nothing less
May God arise
From what once was dark and cold
Bringing light so bright and bold
Making newness from the old
May God arise ……
 
When I am lost in darkness, can you find me, can you find me?
I’m waiting for the sun to surface, can you break free, can you break free?
And I will bring an offering
From my heart now I will sing
 
Chorus